World of My Own

Abandonment?!

2010-12-24T10:15:00.003+08:00

A space of memories.

All I had to do was leave it for 2 months and the guilt of abandonment called for me.

Apparently, in complete disbelief with regards to the speed of time, its the season for giving.

Gift cards senders, thank you! The cards look wonderful! :D

Recipients of my gift cards, I hope you like them. :)

Relatives who will be giving presents later, thank you in advance. Hahaha.

And the ding dong who has been showering me with gifts even long before X'mas, thank you, but please dont squander the money like that anymore.

And very quickly after x'mas, its going to be the start of a new year.

Funny, its actually a very bittersweet feeling.

It's almost like you can't wait for a new beginning, but then you realise you haven't quite remembered what you did the entire year and you're already moving to the next. What's worse is you'll be having another candle added on your next birthday cake. Horror.

From what I've heard from my mum, the Dragons ain't gonna have a good time next lunar year.

So for those who haven't been good boys and girls, yeap, its probably gonna be shit for you next year.

In conclusion, happy holidays, my friends!

And oh. Just in case I don't make it in here for the new year, which most likely would be the case, have a very very happy new year, everyone. If you've got no party to go to, you know my place will be rocking the neighbourhood down. :D

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Excitement Killed.

2010-10-08T10:56:00.004+08:00

Gorgeous. I love the packaging.

And it makes me sad that I have to tear open the sticker just to get what was 40USD paid.

The impressive part when the package arrived was: Wha. It really just took 2-3 days.

But when I tried to put my laptop in, "put" becomes such a gentle word. I had to FORCE it in.

AND OUT.

Drats. Now I'm thinking if I should return and get an exchange.

Don't you think its kinda pointless if you have to spend time just trying to fit your laptop into the sleeve and spend somemore time trying to take it out?

You know how there are times you feel a little deceive about what you see online and what you see in your hands after it arrives?

And there are actually very few things I've bought that has fulfilled the "what you see is what you get" statement and yet give you the whole consumer experience of receiving your package.

Apple gives that amazing experience. Mainly because you actually get to see your items at a physical store before you purchase them. Can't go wrong, can it?

Perhaps I was expecting too much from Colcasac to provide me with that same experience, especially since I've been waiting on this sleeve for an incredibly long time.

But a laptop sleeve is important to me. I don't wanna look like a fool paying 40USD just so I can have a hard time with it.

Turked.

2010-10-08T01:01:00.006+08:00

It was so hot and dry that my skin literally cracked.
Whichever area that was exposed was badly damaged.
So I'm actually rather thankful now for the humidity in Singapore eventhough I will continue to complain about the heat. Hahaha.
But other than that, it was a great holiday. If you're interested in Roman or ancient history, its probably one of the best places to go. Accompanied with a tour guide taking his Masters in ancient history, seriously, what can go wrong? Hahaha.

Surprisingly, I really did manage to do the journal thing.
Unfortunately, the whole polaroid thing didn't quite work out cos I guess it was never really made to take scenery and sorts. So yeah, that was quite a bummer.

The coming 3 months will be rather hectic.
One thing after another.
Other than the preparations for grad, there's also the portfolio book to do. And not forgetting, I need to redesign my namecard too. Damn.
Most likely going to continue the last year in RDI.
Don't think the 10k is worth sacrificing. Plus, I believe the grass will always look greener on the other side. And you know how looks can be so darn deceiving.

Anyway, I ordered my Colcasac! Finally finally.
The long awaited laptop sleeve will soon be mine. :D
This is probably the first time I managed to catch free shipping while online shopping.
Always felt sore about missing it on other online shops. Free shipping FTW!
:D

2 Months and Over.

2010-09-17T19:19:00.002+08:00

Wha.

I wonder when I'll ever stop talking about time.

But, my internship is over. 2 months and its gone.

Very very precious experience.

There's more to learn and I hope I'll do better at my first job when it comes.

As for now, I'll just have to enjoy my nice 13 days at Turkey and bring back something new, something extraordinary.

Bringing 4 Cams with me. I wonder how that's gonna work out.. AHAH. But I'll try.

The next post that's coming in will be filled with my Turkish stories and pictures.

So stay very tuned!

Woohoo! Guess who's back!

2010-09-05T22:10:00.004+08:00

So, TOMS ARE AWESOME.

THAT YELLOW PAIR IS OFFICIALLY MINEEE.

Wanted another awesome pair but its gone.. for good.

BIG SIGH.

So, internship has been moving very very quickly.

I'm only left with 2 weeks. Technically 8 days.. cos Friday's Hari Raya and I end work on the following Thurs.

So yeah.. chop chop and I'll be in Turkey feasting on Halal food and sight seeing. :)

This trip, however, is going to be the first that I'll really make the effort to remember the places I'm gg to and note down interesting things about the cities.

I've come to realise that despite having travelled many places, its almost impossible to remember the names of the cities I've been to. Or even if I did, I can't seem to recall what on Earth happened there; like what i did, what was good, what wasn't..

So then, what did I really bring back? It ended up being a lost experience, or a vague one.

If you know me, I suck at remembering things. Truth. It has become so bad, I actually read up on it. Hahaha. And I have every fear to believe that I'm actually prone to Dementia. So yeah, can't let that happen. Must play more Mahjong as I get older too. Hahaha. Its known to be anti-dementia.

Working life can be overwhelming. Its more than what I've prepared myself for.

Although previous experiences already gave me some kind of heads up, but as we get older, and realise how time actually really flashes, you can't help but feel the urge to stretch that 24 hours to something like 72. Hahaha.

The time to relax and breathe has been ripped before my eyes. Tear a piece of paper and that's exactly how it sounds.

But as much as money drives, I guess we also need to know how to make a balance of the things around us. Eventually, everyone's gg to be caught up with this corrupted world anyway. So, be happy guys! Hahaha.

Up early.

2010-08-19T07:36:00.003+08:00

Woke up early.

Then couldn't go back to sleep.

The only comfort I had throughout the night was having freshly groomed Rusky sleeping right beside till the break of dawn.

he now looks like a pug. And to think he was a japanese chin all these years. I feel deceived.

Thursday.

2010-08-12T19:40:00.003+08:00

On the bus trip back home, many thoughts were running through my mind.
And one of those random pop ups include whether I have enough to be a designer.

At work, I did two ads. Both of which were rejected.
But that's not the point. After all, everyone gets rejection once in a while.
Point is, I've come to realise that there are certain designs that I dislike but people find it nice, whereas designs that I actually like, are the ones that always get trashed.
Am I standing at a point where I can't even tell what's good design and what's bad?
This shouldn't be tolerable.
I'm a designer. I should know what goes and what doesn't. Apparently, I can't seem to find that right spot.

Have I not put in enough? I think so.
I haven't worked smart enough too.
Maybe I'm getting too comfortable with what Kenji has provided us with.
The guidance, the coaching, the improving.

But on the bright side, an hour before work ended, my colleague gave these to me!

Looks like fun! Makes me wanna drink milk right away!
HAHA.
Yummm.
Will feast on this when I'm well! :D

May I introduce to you..

2010-07-30T20:38:00.004+08:00

My very first intern paycheck. The "only" after the word "six" really meant it.
But still happy nonetheless. :)
It's the amount that will cover my lunch meals and uhms.. transportation costs.
Wont last long.

And check this out. Super old school, vibrantly edited with photoshop laundry shop washing machines. Very very cool. Hahaha.

And has anyone been here?
Very interesting. Went to 313 for lunch on wed with the company and we had a pretty good first impression. Though the food looks more colourful than it tastes though mine was pretty awesome. The rest didn't exactly got what they thought would taste in their mouth. So yeah. Hahaha.

Ended up shopping after that.
And the only thing I bought was a 6 dollar milkshake.
By the time we got back to the office it was nearly 4pm.
Hahaa. i was so glad cos there was barely anything for me to do then.
:D
And before you know it, we've come to the weekends.

The Down Side

2010-07-22T21:01:00.005+08:00

Decided to take some pictures while walking to work ytd.

It's a pretty ulu-ated area. And no, the one with the turquoise windows isn't my office building. Haha. It's Mustafa. O.o

So far the only thing that's been keeping me feeling a little jaded after work is the thought of late dinner.

Reheated or worse, non-reheated food, an empty house and well, realising this will continue to happen when I graduate.

But I must say, ytd's dinner was a surprise. I thought I was gonna get unappetizing food so I bought indian curry puffs on the way back but wow.. surprise surprise!

Should have waited till today to get the curry puffs. Damn.

But the up side of this internship is possibly the people.

They will feed you fat.

And then laugh at you later. HAHA.

They are a happy bunch, really. I don't think I've been there and not laughed at all.

Bus 8 is my new love

2010-07-20T21:09:00.002+08:00

I spend about 1h40mins traveling on Bus 8 every weekday.

And funny today I happened to look over this lady sitting beside me, early 40s, OL, listening to her ipod nano..

and on the screen of the nano i saw the most horrifying thing.

"Justin Bieber - Baby"

Maybe he's not that bad la. Horrifying would be too heavy a word for a cute ass like him.

But seriously, I didn't think anyone aged 40 and above would appreciate listening to his songs.

Apparently my dad and this lady has proven that music has no age boundaries.

The start of dooms

2010-07-06T18:15:00.003+08:00

And so.
Internship will officially begin on the 15th.
Excited! But I'll say.. it doesn't really get better.
Went over to the company (again) today to get the contract signed.
they asked what my expectations were.
Hahaha.
Funny - the two fellas asked if I'm okay with photocopying, scanning and making coffee.
Smack.

Anyways, told them about the devastating 20bucks/day news and they agreed if I were to perform well, they'll have it restored to 30/day.
:D
But seriously, I can't afford to fall below expectations.
what they want is speed and quality.
who doesnt, seriously?
but speed is not my middle name, y'all.
that's actually quite a hurdle. yikes.
but still. I'll do my best.
:)

Thursday marks the Xth time to BANGKOK!
Woohooo!
I've been whining about gg there again since forever.. to.. buy.. lingerie.
HAHA.
But seriously. its cheaper there! We women got boobs to take care of and those things don't come cheap. :|
Anyways, I hope to go places I haven't managed to the last couple of times I were there.
Take more photos, take my time around areas.
:)
4 days would be good for us cousins.
double :)

Exciting OR WHAT.

2010-06-17T18:38:00.002+08:00

I think this is by far the most exciting day of the year.
Let me first break the shocking news.
My dearest Macbookpro decided to die on me.
The screen won't come up and well.. it's at the service centre right now with people trying to diagnose the problem.
If its anything worse than a screen problem, then.. hello new macbookpro.
so meanwhile, im using my dad's desktop to do my work using the CS5 trial. HAHAHA.
What a stupid timing for my laptop to crash.
It has never visited the service centre before! Until today lor. Sigh.

Anyway.
Here comes the good news.
I (BELIEVE I) GOT THE INTERNSHIP AT EGG CREATIVES!
WOW.
I went there, did a presentation of my portfolio, had some small talk, and got good grades and TADAH!

I think i was smiling to myself after I left the place.
its so hard to hide a smile when you're genuinely happy.
Im still smiling!

Although its just 600, but you know, we're still cheap labored interns. what to do.
hahaha.

When i emailed the guy for the first time, his reply wasn't too positive and I thought maybe, you know, there goes my chance.
but after he received my pdf file, HE CALLED FOR THE PRESENTATION!
I was already jumping then.
And then and then right..
hahahahha.
when i went to the office earlier, the guy asked me about my internship.. which gave me some light. and GOSH I CANT GO ON. ITS JUST WAY MORE EXCITING THAN PUTTING IT IN WORDS.
SORRY GUYS. IF YOU WANNA KNOW MORE, I CAN GO INTO THE DETAILS.
but point now is. I'm happy. and if you feel happy for me, thank you. cos i need to share the happiness. too much for myself to keep everything!
YAY! Im only hoping I can keep up to their pace.
you know, dont wanna under perform.
:)

Muahahah.

2010-05-22T10:55:00.004+08:00

Okay.
Equinox was pretty cool. But we only had 1 and a half hours. And we got chased out. Hahahaha.
Received two cameras for my present! (UHMS. Wasn't expecting presents. TEEHEE.)

But look at them! SO CUTE.
If only the holga came with a bubblegum scent. HAHA. That would have added more fun to taking lomo pictures. O.O

And look at this. Its a sexy accessory that makes me feel that more related to Johnny Depp. A MUSTACHE! A TURN ON! HAHAHA.

Oo Oo check this.. FOOLSCAP PAPER! Nice and very old school. I should grade and return it. LOL!

Ended up at some restaurant at pasir ris park for dinner and drinks. Only mine was non alcoholic and boy was it some ears-covering, jaw-dropping, scream-exclaiming evening.

We were loud and noisy and indoors. HAHAHA. But. Who cares. :D
And btw, a glass of coffee can last me 6 over hours, wide awake.
I didn't sleep last night. And I still don't feel a damn thing.

MO out for a walk.

2010-05-12T16:01:00.001+08:00

What pencil what paper?

2010-05-02T13:16:00.002+08:00

My battle scar.

My good friend, MO.

Uhm. Any idea what I'm drawing? No? Me neither.

Is there anything at all

2010-05-01T10:15:00.002+08:00

that's left to do?

can't think can't work can't move can't breathe can't concentrate.
nothing else makes it any easier.

Move on.

The Online Feeling

2010-04-13T23:30:00.001+08:00

Makes me wanna buy make up.

:|

Fire Extinguisher Ads. Hmm.

2010-04-12T13:52:00.002+08:00

I like the old feel.
Don't know if its really vintage advertisements or new ones. :\
Cool.

And this.

2010-03-29T19:15:00.002+08:00

Before I turn 24

2010-03-29T15:38:00.001+08:00

I would have collected all of the above.

Plus a cabinet.

The New Polo

2010-02-08T02:25:00.002+08:00

Hahaha. Woopeeeeee.

Two things to be happy for.

I FINALLY FINISHED MY PRESENTATION SLIDES AT 2 FUCKING AM.

Didnt mean to be crude. But I really didnt understand why I took so @#!@$!^#&*% LONG to finish those couple of *(%&@#(%*^ Slides.

DAMN IT. Have to say though, that I took a nap in between and yes, a shower too.

And for the headline news..

DAD BOUGHT A SECOND CAR.

WAHAHAHA.

VOLKSWAGEN POLO!

Took a test drive at it.

Very smooth.

Very sturdy for a 1.4L car.

But its very basic, very economical.

Good for new drivers, I supposed?

Haha.

And crap am I loving the leather colour. :) :)

Unfortunately though, it can only come about 4 months later.

So, for now, I'll just have to anticipate.

First there was him

2010-02-03T00:12:00.003+08:00

First there was Johnny Depp.

Then there was Thomas Ong..

Then Robert Downey Jr came along..

Now Michael Bublé has swept me off my feet..

HOW?

Die la. How can anyone be in love with 4 men at the same time?

Tsk tsk. Shame on me.

HAHAHA.

AHHH

2010-02-02T10:43:00.002+08:00

Okay, seriously, I need to start being productive.
Going to school early to.. do work.

Was it last week?

2010-01-26T21:54:00.003+08:00

Well here's the completed, inproportionate pencil.

Here's to a lovely bag. Cheers.

Was at the library last week, hoping to find a book to help on my publication project.

Didn't know where to start looking, ended up finding some self help books.

And guess what I borrowed?

HAHA.

Dad's Birthday - The Age's A Secret.

2010-01-20T21:40:00.000+08:00

Dad just returned from Genting with my relatives ytd night and I went to pick them up.

Spoke to my aunt in the car while the rest were buying Durians.
And I asked her about the trip.

She said this: Go where with your dad always fun. Even if the place is boring, your dad will also make it fun.

Go where also laugh laugh laugh.

I don't know how he does it.

He's incredible, as a father, a friend, a husband (im sure my mum wldnt agree any less), son to my grandma, brother to my uncles and aunt..

Any one who knows him would know that..

The classic daddy pose.

Haha. The birthday orchestra's conductor.

The enthusiastic birthday wish.

The birthday kiss.

Ended dad's birthday with a little cake from Rive.

To the best father in the world, CHEERS!

Happy Birthday, Daddy!
:)

The Things

2010-01-15T09:45:00.005+08:00

The things that live inside my room.
Creatures - Insects, arachnids..

And then what lives outside is this:

Really? Are humans destined to constantly look out, in search of the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? Funny. How come this rainbow has faded end points. Shit. Now there's no pot of gold. Great.

To The Inconsiderates

2010-01-07T23:47:00.003+08:00

The toilet seats are not meant for stepping nor peeing.
So if by any chance, you think they were for your comfort foot rest, please refrain from killing my appetite from seeing shoe prints on the toilet seats and poor aiming of the toilet bowl. The toilet bowl hole is BIG. And the circumference of your pee will never reach 1/10 of the circumference of the bowl. So. Don't be an ass. Pee in the bowl. Not outside of it or on the toilet seats. Your pee don't smell good too. Its pungent and a complete smell pollutant. Just so you don't know, I'm telling you now. Peeing ethics. Learn.

(some) pictures from australia

2010-01-03T19:22:00.006+08:00

Hahaha.
And.. we're back to the hot and humid singapore.

Vacation-ed

2010-01-02T11:25:00.003+08:00

Just returned from Aussie not too long ago.
It was a pretty good break, but a bit overwhelming with their "how're you going?" greeting.
Hahaha.

But we've met a couple of people.
Mostly nice..
Got less nice when we hit Melbourne.
Hahaha. But the architecture there.. beautiful.
And it seems the food has been pretty much fused to suit every being who visits Australia.
From Thai, to chinese, to jap to korean to indian..
You name it, they got it. And pls, they even had a "singapore chom chom" shop there.
That was pretty amusing. HAHA.

Took quite a number of pictures. Could have taken a lot more.. but. haha.
Sometimes laziness does get in the way.
Oh and hell, Melbourne's sun sets at 9PM!!!
seriously. No shit. While we're in the midst of darkness, they are shinning their sun in people's faces. Never woke up early enough to see what time their sun rises though. Damn.

But I feel like I am already familiar with goldcoast and melbourne. Hahah.
It isn't too hard to find your way around places. But Melbourne can get a little more confusing.
:|
But hell, everything's expensive. EVERYTHING. One meal is an average of 10bucks.
there's no such thing as 2.50 or 3 dollars chicken rice, please.
So I'm appreciating the food prices here in my own homeland.
:D
And it tastes good too.

Happy New Year, All.
Be well. Be Sane. Be Happy.

New Love

2009-11-17T19:52:00.003+08:00

Muahahahahahah! Finally got my delicate hands on one of the world's most common seen image capturing device!
Thanks to my dad and his want for a laptop, I am now the owner of a D3000.
Its really entry level stuff. Probably the most basic DSLR around.. But.. that's all I need.
If you ask why I need a DSLR for when i already have 2 digi cams..
Hmm.. the feeling is just different la..
:D
The image produced.. tsk tsk tsk.

But bad weather now for a photography trip.
Australia, here we come! :D

Rock Posters

2009-11-07T13:39:00.002+08:00

Hahaha. I did this for my illustration class.
3 contemporary rock posters for two bands going on a tour.
Just haven't finish the tour details.
:D
The lecturer seemed pretty pleased. And. So am i!

Teleporting

2009-11-02T09:42:00.003+08:00

They really should step up on the speed to finding a teleporting machine where traveling time is measured by secs.
The future shouldn't be accidentless cars worked by machines.. but teleporting machines to completely wipe out cars.
After presentation today, I'm heading straight home for the sleep I deserve.
I try to stop asking myself what I'm doing this for.
At the same time, I'm trying to convince that same person that its good practice and I'm going learn a whole big deal out of it.
After all, we usually learn quite a bit from the things we don't exactly have a liking for.

Its an interesting feeling when you get a good impression from something that's.. not so good.

MO is my new love. If I could, I would have a life size figurine of him placed right under my cork board. And put rusky in his container. Hee.

While I Take5.

2009-10-21T17:01:00.004+08:00

It was less horrifying than expected. Thanks to a classmate who helped me out with my poor typo sense.
There are so many things I would love to do during my own free time.
But my term breaks are/were never long enough.
It would be perfect to just sit and do basic drawing and colouring, make a collage out of things that belong to the trash, sketch quirky things in a self made book, do up some cards, sells the cards.. :/ never know..

As the days go by, I wonder what it'd be like waking up for just one day, not thinking about bothering issues that are weighing down on my shoulders and eating into my brains; no worries, no decisions to make.

JUST FOR ONE FUCKING DAY.
Bloody hell.

:)

So Hard

2009-10-19T10:36:00.002+08:00

I'm trying to record Gold 90Fm's jingle "Classic Hits All Day, Gold 90FM".
ITS DAMN HARD, man.
And I couldn't find it online either.
:|
Does anyone happen to have it recorded somewhere?
Hahaha. If you do, you must be mad, but an angel.

Holy.

2009-10-15T22:50:00.003+08:00

If there's one line to describe my nervousness for this semester, I'd say:
I'm going to pee in my pants.

Insane

2009-10-08T19:11:00.002+08:00

The people who lose their minds are the ones who lost the ability to pretend they are sane.
I'm sure we are all insane in one way or another.

Breather.

2009-09-22T21:53:00.003+08:00

I can't believe I'm working into my hols.
Technically it isn't my official hols yet but its supposed to be and that's that.

But you know, some printers are really out to **** your assignments up.
And this dreaded feeling of entering a shop populated with that particular race which i'm starting to particularly dislike because of their almost invisible amount of efficiency makes me want to pour kerosene and light a match stick.
Plus, they charge you 24K gold prices for a few cardboard pieces glued or thread together.
Which explains the 11 bucks left in my bank account. Considering I've been using my supp card for most of my printings, you know the life of being a design STUDENT deprives you of all finances.

I'm really tired.
Tired of walking down one lane of bugis to another.
Buy paper, then walk back to the printer, then to another printer to bind then back to the paper shop because they are going to screw up my assignment and then head to bras basah to get another stack printed but it turned out like a piece of junk..
So i kind of gave up hope on it already. Still need to print stuff tmr cos most of the prints i did today turned out like **** shit. So yeah, I just might end up submitting on thurs instead of the agreed tmr.

So this whole.. paper-printing-binding thing has driven and motivated me to plan big..
I'm going to set up a printing shop.
Watch me.

Eyes

2009-09-01T09:34:00.001+08:00

Damn F^&*%^&#$%#-ing Tired.

FINALLY SOME BREATHING SPACE

2009-08-27T19:03:00.005+08:00

I just came back from a full day at school.
And can I just say, FWOAH..
and..
FWAHHHH..

It has got nothing to do with tiredness, nothing to do with drowsiness, nothing to do with wanting to faint.

The piling amount of work is FWOAHHH..
The work done with respect to the deadlines is FWAHHHH..

So there you go.
Its been a fwoah fwah day.

Ever since I started school, I think i've been longing for home cooked food more frequently..
Something about school makes me miss home I think. HAHA.

Oh and just 2 days ago I was at the National Museum of Singapore AGAIN because I had to gather some information for my visual manual which I know you don't have a clue on what I'm talking about.. but anyway, I realised I missed out a lot of things on my first trip there.
Apparently there are more interesting things to see other than the audio experience on spore's history.
:|

Okay, I think I ought to start on my work now.
Time check: 7.24pm
K shall work till midnight.
4 and a half hours. hmmm..
should be able to finalize my paper catalogue and maybe a proper design for my CD packaging too.

Alright now, BYE MY LOYAL PEASANTS.

Thank You-ed

2009-08-15T13:22:00.002+08:00

Teng wrote me a thank you card.
DON'T LET YOU SEE!
And it in was the sketch I drew. HAHAHA.
I didnt think I had to see it another time after it was labeled as ugly. OUCH indeed. HAHAHA.
But i know. I think its damn awesome too. HAHAHAHAHHAHA.
Thanks for the card, WOMAN. Its just as awesome. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
:D

- -

Sigh.
Is it because it's a saturday or what, cause I have absolutely no mood to do my work despite being incredibly behind time. UGHHHHHHHH. My weekends.......

2009

2009-08-13T20:07:00.000+08:00

I think I have never been this hard working in my entire life.

Using my phone.

2009-07-29T10:07:00.002+08:00

something good comes out from having a smart phone. Like.. Surfing the internet when you dont have a bloody laptop. Moreover, its light. Only you end up typing a bit slower. Okay, a lot slower. Haha.

class hasnt started, cause the lecturer's arranging some props for us to draw. Looks terrible actually, but who am i to say, no, change the objects, it looks really ugly. I want to draw a nude person. Now that, would be awesome. Ok gtg bye.

Late and Later Nights.

2009-07-19T11:48:00.003+08:00

My parents have been rather concerned about my late night returns.
And its weird that this is happening more frequently than it used to..
Said its the core to my breakouts.
Which, I cannot deny or argue because it is a direct cause.

I've been feeling rather restless lately.
I wonder if its because of the amount of pressure i get upon seeing good works from other students.
And when you keep harping on the thought that you need to buck up and score 90, its mentally torturous.
But this is the crucial semester and there is going to be no way for any slight failure. Almost 80 percent of the work will be going into my portfolio so I really need to work for it.
Which means, for the next 3 mths, you'd be seeing a lot less of me except for birthday parties. Hahaha.
Which also means, you'd still be seeing me a lot.

I better get started on my work.

Hols Over and Its the Start of A BRAND NEW TERM.

2009-07-06T14:11:00.004+08:00

And POOFH! There goes my 2week break.
:|

I was telling myself that I'm going to be dead this semester because I'm having a 5module sem which means one less off day and more money spent on printing and A LOT LESS SLEEP.
I did try telling myself that things may not be that bad.. but when i attended my first lesson today, and Kenji found out we have 5 modules this sem, he said: HUH? You guys have 5 modules? You guys are dead man. You guys are dead man.

Thanks, Kenji. It's very reassuring.

Painted my wall.
How's that?

I'm halfway through my ballerina behind my door.
Will take a pic and upload them once im done with it.
Stay tuned!
:)

F I N A L L Y

2009-06-19T00:20:00.002+08:00

WOOHOOO!
12 hours on one assignment..
I think I can call it a day.
If you use photoshop, and you know what radial blur is, I lost it there.
I stopped radial blurring half way because I was really tired.
Looking at bicycles all day makes me a dull girl.
You should see the way I was walking around the house.
Feets heavy.. hair's in a mess, eyes sunken.. no sabby.

Kelong will be a good time to break away from technology (other than my handphone)..
And gives me a night to think about everything else but school.
Awesome.

I've been waiting.
Finally.
FINALLY.

Come monday, I'll tidy up my impossibly trashed up room..
and wipe out every puny ant and ants' nest and every dust speckle.

TOMORROW:
Need to charge my camera batteries, pack my luggage for Kelong and take a breather.

Temporary Closure of the Brain

2009-06-02T10:56:00.008+08:00

Woo.
I'm having a weird headache.

But anyway.
Due to my busy schedule, I'll be disengaging myself from the bloggedup world for a little while.
Until maybe the 22nd June when I'm back from Kelong.

If I could, I might pop by and enter a couple of lines.
But.
Because I need to pull up my lousy grades, I kind of doubt that possibility.
See you guys when I see you guys!
:D

The Big THANK YOU

2009-05-27T10:06:00.002+08:00

And so, I've officially turned 21.
21, the big 2 and the big 1.
It's like playing daidee.
The smallest numbers matter more.
Hahaha.

Havent had the time the past couple of days to make a blog entry cause I wrecked my weekends for my birthday.
So.
Here I am, on a Wednesday morning, putting down my thoughts with the biggest sincerity, and all from the bottom of my heart.

THANK YOU, all for who has been part of the celebration, who wished me happy birthday, gave their generous ang baos :D, bought wonderful presents, took photos with me, sang the birthday song, ate the awesome durian cake, text-ed me and facebooked me.. special thanks to those who helped with the photography, bought elephants for me (which btw, the elephant wrapper was beautiful), and for aunt susan who helped prepare so many stuff for her dear niece - me, and most importantly, my dad for making all this financially and supportively possible. And mummy for.. helping with the cake and.. making this supportively possible too. Bro.. thanks for the japanese strawberry chocolate (it's in the fridge, help yourself to it). HAHAHA.

It was kinda disorganised, have to apologise to those who i didnt manage to take photos with before the cake was cut.
And I barely spoke to SOX, really sorry for that. Wished I have spent more time talking to you guys cause its been such a long while...
But its really good seeing you all again. :)
I hope the food was to your liking and I thank you all, once again, for taking time to come down to celebrate this special occasion with me.

There's no part of me that feels I've really turned 21.
but I keep telling myself I am getting older - that is what kills my mental youth.
Hahaha.

Pei, since you've been putting in so much effort to make elephants my no.1 fave animal, i decided to upgrade them to my 3rd instead of 4th.
:D Thanks, for everything. I really like the wrapping. Who knows I might want you to help with my wall someday. HAHA.
Thank you for helping teng out with all the other planning. :)

Ivy, thank you for your presence and the photography. Lovely.
Wished you had stayed longer.
Oh and please take care of your back.
:D

Pam. Hello. Hahaha. Thank you for doing the LOSER banner design cause I never thought a loser could look so pretty and cute all at the same time. Thank you. :D HAHA.

Tengteng (the big one). I'm glad you argued with pei over the elephant cause if you didn't, I probably wouldn't have gotten it in one piece. :D HAHA. Thank you for coming.

Teng (the lover). Wow. After all the ordering of food, buying of balloons, purchasing of (expensive) presents, doing the scrapbook (hope you didnt take the entire day to draw my back view. hahahaa), and trying to get the people to walk on their feets while the candles were on the run, it's now all over. And we both didnt even get to eat the cake then. I had to eat alone, and you still havent had a bite. And.. that's my 21st.
I don't know how much more I could thank you for making sure things went according to.. what a party shld be like. :|
Hanging 3 cameras over you, walking around with me, entertaining my friends.
How did you do it? Hahaha. I'm beginning to suspect your hidden ability of cloning yourself so you can be everywhere at the same time.
Ok, I'll leave more lovey dovey stuff for your 21st scrapbook. HAHA. Oops. Did I just spoil the surprise?

Will upload the photos soon!
:|

Its Going to be One Hell of a Packed Week.

2009-05-19T10:03:00.002+08:00

I'm gasping for air man.

AHH.
4 more days to celebration.
5 more days to actual day.
:|

A World Without Strangers

2009-05-12T19:06:00.004+08:00

Why does it sound so darn familiar?
Is that the Giordano theme they had once?
Cause now, its just flashing in my mind like a dying bulb.

News flash:
I'm going to fail one of my assignments.

News flash:
I'm going bowling tomorrow with a whole lot of people I don't know. Socialize, Sabby. You're so good at it. NOT.

News flash:
I'm going to start being serious with my school work. Conditions are looking bad and competition is stiff. Not so much of a news flash, huh.

News flash:
There are no more news flash for today.

I Thought

2009-05-10T22:33:00.002+08:00

Just because my hives didnt appear in the morning till about just now,
I thought it was easing off.
But.
I guess I was wrong.

Hmm.
I'm completely stuck at my graphic design assignment.
I can't even start to sketch one damn fucking thing.
The nap only made me feel like I need more sleep.

Ahhh.
Fuck la.

PARDON MY POWERFUL LANGUAGE

2009-05-06T19:29:00.004+08:00

THE REASON IM USING ALL CAPS FOR THIS POST IS BECAUSE I'M FUCKING PISSED.
MY CHALET, COTTAGE TO BE SPECIFIC, WHICH TENG AND I CHIONGED SO CRAZILY FOR, HAS NOW BEEN CANCELLED.
WHY?
I DONT WANT TO BLAME THE SWINES BUT, YES! ITS FUCKING THEM.
SO THE ... GOVERNMENT TOOK OVER THOSE BLOODY ALOHA CHALETS AND WHEN IM LIKE SO FUCKING CLOSE TO MY BIRTHDAY, ITS CANCELLED, BABY. CANCELLED.
COTTAGE. GONE.
COTTAGE!

I CANT BELIEVE IT.
REALLY.
I CAN'T.

WHAT NOW?
CLEARLY TO BOOK ANOTHER CHALET AT A FUCKING TIME LIKE THIS IS GOING TO BE IMPOSSIBLE.

the only place i can think of now is my own house.
That was the initial plan anyway.
but to be completely honest, i was really happy and excited that i got the cottage.
cos.. its cute. you know, by the sea, spacious with garden, and i can have a bbq..
cater food and fit everyone there with mahjong..
i already fucking envisioned everything.
i saw me answering my phone calls with people asking me for directions.
i saw me happy upon receiving people at the door step.
i saw me standing at the grass area looking across the fucking sea, enjoying every bit of the breeze, or sun, or moonlight, with my friends, out in the night, just talking about nothing, cam whoring around the area, feeding the mosquitoes which btw i already planned to buy loads of mosquito coils..
i saw me and my friends and my guests.. THERE.
FUCK.
FUCK IT.
CB LA!

I'm not okay.

Is STRAWBERRY likings seasonal?

2009-05-02T12:04:00.003+08:00

I finished more than a packet of strawberry marshmellows and completely walloped two packets of the koala bear strawberry biscuits.
And now I feel sick.
Not sick of strawberry flavoured junk food, but the not enough nutrients in my body kind of feeling.
And you know, I really like the strawberry chocolate marshmellows, so I thought it'd be nice to show you guys how it looks like.

So that's when it's all gone.
:D
But. Don't worry, since I'm a fond lover of this product, and I thought everyone should have a taste of it, you get to have a mouth full of them on the 30th of May! HOORAY!

We All Love Singa the Courtesy Lion

2009-04-29T16:54:00.006+08:00

I don't know what Singa the Courtesy Lion was doing at the National Library.

Why isn't it located as large as this at MRT stations stating "It's considerate to move your ass away from the door cause if you have brains to think, you need to let others out before you can get in. PS: I didn't think we need to be taught to be considerate but since you have problems with your mental health, I thought maybe at least you could act like you're considerate. Thanks. :)"

Just For You

2009-04-28T04:01:00.000+08:00

Thanks, Pei.

Really.

Taking A (tiny squirmy little) Break

2009-04-25T19:32:00.008+08:00

I was doing some sketches for my assignment and I thought it'd be nice to just take a tiny squirmy little break to upload some pictures.

Hmm, take it as a period of time here where I want to share a tiny squirmy little part of my life.

All with the help of my (okay, here comes the haolian part) powerpact super duper ultra wakalala new phone! :D

Thought it might be nice to share something about this cute birdy here. It's a tiny squirmy little part of my not so tiny squirmy little bag. Okay, lets put a stop to the tiny squirmy little thing from this tiny squirmy little point on, alright? Haha.

And since Pei didn't want to show her face on my wonderful new phone camera, I thought maybe I could share part of her paper life here on my blog. Cos why? She marks these things all day, everyday. She marked them until she got sick. And guess what she told me the other day? She asked me to take care. :) So I'd like to take this opportunity to tell her, Pei, take care. :) :)

No, I'm not going to talk about this. But I like the colours. :/

And the lover and I. Who has something we can't seem to figure on the left side of her head. I suspect its Agnes' doing.

Oh ho ho. And this is.. the not so yummy, not so cheap.. untidily eaten chicken wings.

The point where Twen Ong became Twen Ong-Lau. Hahaha. And Agnes Lau remained Agnes Lau with a huge stomach and an appetite of an elephant. Thought I should exaggerate her eating capacity, but I decided against it. Elephant's good.

Any guesses why that look? Beats me. I didn't do anything to her. Can't possibly be the result of me snatching her chicken wing, calamari and rootbeer float, right? :D

And I must explain here. Its a calamari ring (just in case you didn't know), and the white thing there with yellow bits in the centre? It's the plate.

So cute, huh? Huh huh huh. HAHAHAHA. *Winks* How could she be smiling with two life threatening utensils at her eye? But I like irony and contradictions.

Thought it was a pretty gd picture of us. :D There's this artistic feel to it. Must be my cam whoring skills. It took another level up. Again.

Damn, I'm a natural.

Hahaha.

Alright now. Back to sketching!

Ever wondered how you managed to take all my nonsense writings? :D

Emo For Too Long

2009-04-20T19:34:00.003+08:00

Hahaha.

Emily msged me the other day saying I sounded depressed.

So I thought I should share some happy thoughts with my readers.

I guess I haven't officially informed the world.

That..

I BOUGHT NOKIA E75!

Intended to get the black one but somehow, I just had to get my hands on the red.

I have 3 slight problems with it.

Let's start with the most problematic.

There are NO EMOTIONS when i type this - :) :( :S :P

HOW SAD IS THAT?!

There are also some of its texting issues i haven't got used to yet.

Hmm.

And oh, there's no proper alarm clock in it.

Bad. Bad.

But other than that, the qwerty keyboard is working well and i actually like it a lot.

I can feel the tension of the assignments piling my way.

The image of me burying myself with work has already been vividly visualized in my mind.

Jia lat.

And suddenly wed and thurs off don't seem enough.

I'm in serious trouble for Friday's class.

3 illustrator assignments to submit and i haven't even completed one.

Do u believe in miracles?

Hahaha.

I have to.

I Didn't Do Anything.

2009-04-17T10:43:00.003+08:00

Over my off days on Wed and Thurs, I did NOTHING.
Nothing at all.

I feel very tired sometimes.
But I'm keeping my faith.

Hmm. Tuesday. 15th April.

2009-04-15T10:57:00.003+08:00

I have a lot of things to do.

Small things put together and it'd take an entire day.

I have yet to print grandma's photo.

Yet to pass Aunt Susan her photos.

Yet to return Hiff his camera.

Need to print 15 different typefaces.

Sketches for movie poster for Image Processing.

Read notes on page layout.

BS's Logo design. (Shit. I'm screwed)

---

I'm lagging far behind.

The only things I see ahead are the butts of people from the other class.

And because there are so many of them in front, I can't see the finishing line.

Worse, I'm almost out of breath. And there are others beside me, close behind.

It's a competitive world.

Feels like a race with no finishing line.

Only an announcer constantly keeping track on the first person who's ahead of everyone else.

And if you don't catch up, no one will know your name.

No one will know you.

If so, you might as well don't join the race.

Second sem. And it only gets tougher.

Recently.

2009-04-09T11:18:00.003+08:00

Don't mean to scare anyone.

But.

Just last night, I was thinking about.. death.

(Amazing how one thought leads to another)

And what shocked myself was the thought on suicides.

Fyi: I'm not emo-ing. And no, I'm not that weak to do foolish things. :)

But as much as I love my life right now, sometimes I do feel damn cramped up inside.

And I know such feelings are not comparable to people who have really been through seriously hard times in life.

But its one of those times you feel like giving but you're hanging on because you have so many people to answer to, and yourself to answer to.

Sometimes when I'm in the toilet (of all places), I let a lot of my thoughts run wild.

And I find my eyes water up.

It's like. WTH just happened?

But yeah, it has happened.

I think it's because its a place you suddenly stop all that you're doing and you finally have time for yourself.

No technology to distract you.

No body to talk to.

Just you, the toilet and water.

Sitting on the toilet bowl or staring at the mirror are the two very emotional places to think not unless you're rushing and wouldn't have time to think except for how you're going to be late.

But point is. As much as I seem unbothered or give little attention to the things around me, it does affect me.

The weird part is, sometimes I don't realise that it has affected me.

How they always say suicide is to escape.

To run away from your problems.

Sounds cliche to me.

But what's a better way to put it?

A lot of us are very weak people.

We lose our temper so easily.

Like at our mothers, eventhough they really don't deserve it.

Or at the effort we're putting in for our work/project/school stuff.

We lose temper at ourselves.

We have so little control over our own emotions.

We left something we are suppose to control, control us.

Weak, aren't we?

Back to Reality

2009-04-06T09:55:00.002+08:00

I'M IN SCHOOL!

Can you sense the anxiety and excitement in the words I typed?

And I guess dad had something to attend to at work so I'm early for class (which btw is normal) and well, alone too.

Hahaha.

Although its a mere 2-week break, I kind of feel a bit foreign.

BQWMKSLKFHEWIUNXMNZC.

Makes me wanna go Cambodia and Vietnam.

Don't know why.

Proper Rest

2009-04-04T15:04:00.003+08:00

I shld start learning how to get good rest.

My body has been showing signs of ageing (or aging?).

and dizzy spells taking over my mind.

and rashes taking over my skin.

and pimples taking over my face.

basically. i need rest. and proper rest.

sleeping at 3am, waking up 8 hours later doesn't count.

it has to be.. sleep at 11pm/12am, wake at 7am/8am.

live it.

Last Day of March

2009-03-31T10:07:00.003+08:00

Amazing, huh.
The way time passes us by.
It was the beginning of the year.
And now we're entering the mid.
Scary.
I'm supposed to be working on my plans for my own birthday.
Stuck.

Let me spend today alone.
Just me and my room and my laptop and my thoughts.
Rejuvenation and complete silence surround sound, that's what I need.
School's starting monday which means I can't afford to fall sick.

I think I love my life.
:)

:(

2009-03-29T10:24:00.003+08:00

I cannot get over S740.
Even though I have given up on it.
I can't.
Nth beats. NOTHING.

If till my birthday, m1 still sells it.
I'm getting a new line.

Just a Thought

2009-03-26T00:40:00.004+08:00

Many of us constantly seek understanding..
But often we fail to understand first.

Like how we wished our parents could better understand us, feel the way we do, and be in our shoes.
But have we ever tried to be in theirs?

NO MORE SNOOZING OF ALARMS!

2009-03-23T19:26:00.002+08:00

HOORAY!
hahaha.

I shall leave my alarm unattended, unused and untouched for 2 weeks!
Finally, it's break time.
Shall enjoy it thoroughly.
It's going to be a high-in-quality break.
:)

So.. where shall I start?
Need to edit pictures for teng's relatives.
And. Develop one picture for my grandma.
Send the pictures to the respective volunteers.

All that. Tmr.

Right now.
It's just going to be about me and my rest time.
Oh, and to coffee with teng.

I need to pack my room, reorganize my itunes and laptop files. Tmr.

Meet Em for dinner.
Em, are you reading this?
hahah.

And..
bake.
BAKE. :D
Need to find recipe.

And the date with Jelly.
On thurs. Hope it doesn't rain.

And.. ... ...
Wednesday. Make a trip to browhaus.
Could do that tmr too.
Which ever.

And what else what else.
Okay. That's for the next few days.
Gd enough for a start.
Hahaha.
CIAOS.

SCHOOL TERM IS ALMOST OVER.

2009-03-19T11:46:00.002+08:00

So. Fast. Ah.

1 term almost down, 11 to go. HAHA.

But so far, I really, most genuinely and sincerely, enjoy it there very much.

Visual communication.

It was right from the beginning.

I just ended up with New Media for 3 years, that's all.

Monday will be the last lesson.

Tuesday onwards, I'd be embarking on a whole new journey of the... TO-DO LIST!

One of which is actually quite interesting.

And I'll make it the very first thing to do.

That is.. to do.. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING AT ALL!

Stare into space for 2 minutes.. with no thoughts, be mindless.

I think I kind of need that.

Maybe just sit at my park, watch people go by, and listen 2 seconds of their small talk, watch their expressions, listen to their footsteps.. catch some secondary school kids in their stunt bikes jumping off the stairs, watch maids brings their owners' kids out to play, watch ah mas do taiji.

That. Is. The. Life.

I slept happy.

Marina Barrage

2009-03-12T19:18:00.003+08:00

Hmm.
I really liked the layout of the viewing gallery.
Only I wished the information was as interesting as they made it looked.
:|

I'm gg to get really busy this week till the next.
So, guess it's gonna be hard for me to commit another blog entry in the next 7 days or so. haha..
May all be well!

Wha.

2009-03-10T20:06:00.002+08:00

Hahaha.
I thot I was screwed for sure.
Stayed up till bout 3plus to do some work but ended feeling so demoralized cos I thot it would be not up to standard.
but.
well,
sometimes, things can turn around.
:)

and for those who showed their much observant skills on facebook,
thanks for all the congrats.
hahaha.
:D

2 Lovers. :)

2009-03-06T15:43:00.000+08:00

If there's anything better than right now, it's not reality.
HAHAHA.

It's Me Again

2009-02-28T11:06:00.001+08:00

I'm Not Sleeping Tonight

2009-02-28T09:45:00.002+08:00

Because I have a typography assignment to complete.
Anyone interested to stay up?
HAHA.

Typography drives everyone insane.
It is to me, actually the toughest module.
But. Brings me the most excitement.
Of cause it wouldn't be exciting if I get shit grades at the end of the term.
HAHA.
Somehow, it lets me believe I am actually learning and doing work!
It's been a while since I felt like that.
:)
Wait, when was the last time?

crap.

2009-02-26T22:40:00.003+08:00

If I had loads and loads of money, I would like to set up an entire row of chalets and open it to all members of the public and there will be no exclusivity for civil servants.
SO ANNOYING!
seriously.
what special price and being able to book a month earlier.
Making things difficult for people who are trying to celebrate their 21st Birthdays!
LIKE ME!

HAHAHA.
was at changi area to recce the chalets available.
apparently, they have all been taken up.
power la singaporeans.
know nothing but enjoying their stay at chalets.
depriving me of my only hope on organising a gathering for my relatives and friends on a special occasion; MY 21ST BIRTHDAY.
Seriously, is it that hard to get a simple thing done?
HAHA.
am i even speaking English?
Do you know what i'm talking about?

Sigh.
I'm having it at home.
People, you guys are all invited.
23rd May.
My place.
:)

WEDNESDAY AGAIN!

2009-02-25T08:41:00.002+08:00

Wow. This is already the 8th week of school.
another 3 4 weeks and it's gonna be term break.
Which for your info, is only a week short. hahahaha.
damn.

But I really need that one week.
I think its been madness for the last 2 weeks.
As though there wasn't any air left.

I was happy and tired yesterday.
The lack of sleep, but the overwhelming feeling that people like my works.
It's hard to put two very different feelings together and convince others I can actually feel that way.
HAHAHA.

But it was great.
Good.

DESIGN POLICE! FREEZE!

2009-02-23T21:01:00.004+08:00

Drunkard Says: LAUNCH Police Report.

2009-02-15T09:06:00.002+08:00

Hahahaha.
It was seriously funny during Ivy's birthday party last night.
Drunk and completely hilarious.
It's been a while since I've laughed that much, really.

And thanks to alcohol, many of us were left either so well entertained and amused, or in plain shock.
We have evidences of her uncontrollable actions and just watching her move from one end of the chalet to another was enough to make us tear from laughing.
Ivy, thanks for drinking.
You've just set the record for the most entertaining chalet, including the best entertainer.
I couldn't have been laughing my guts out if it wasn't for your 21st.
I hope you'll have fun hiding under your blanket cos there's probably no way out of a situation you created in about 6 hours.
By the way, you've also won yourself the person who stayed drunk for the longest period of time.
Well done. AHAHAHA.

On a darker note, I haven't finished any of my assignments, which means, I'm beyond screwed.
I'M WORKING ON IT NOW.

Valentine, What?

2009-02-14T03:56:00.002+08:00

Happy FRIENDSHIP day!
I don't care. It's friendship day not V!@&#$^ Day.
Hahahaha.
Free smiles for those who treat me nice. HAHA

How.

2009-02-13T01:39:00.002+08:00

Just how on earth did everything turn out this way?
I'm lost, and clueless and I really don't know what I can do anymore.

What ever happened to wills and ways?
Do they not apply to this situation?

Breathe

2009-02-12T11:54:00.002+08:00

Recently, the overloading makes it hard to me to breathe.
And often, I just end up not completing my work cos oxygen cant get up there and therefore, disrupts my thoughts.

I just want to listen to The Way I Are all day. HAHA.
Close my eyes and enter surreality.

:)

2009-02-10T18:58:00.002+08:00

Although I was feeling rather moody today, leaving out the fact I only slept a couple of hours, i felt seriously overloaded and thought I was going to start getting really angry with myself over shit as nothing I do seem to be able to help me meet my deadlines, and.. slowly into the lessons, I think indigestion was eating me up, I felt the urge to do one thing; JOG.

AND I DID!

And while I was jogging, I thought about a couple of things:

One, am i going to throw up soon cos I really dont rmb the last time i jogged.
Two, "first round sabby, we can make it through the second!!"
Three, i really should jog like every damn day. feels great.
Four, avoid jogging at this hour esp when you just started jogging cos its damn malu if pple noticed you only jogged 2 and a half rounds and already trying to catch ur breath.
Finally Five, why is my tummy moving in the up and down direction? it didnt feel like that last year. HAHA.

Shitty feeling when you know you really had gained weight.
JOG.

Gone Case.

2009-02-08T11:52:00.004+08:00

Benjamin Buttons.
For that, I slept at bout 5?
Somewhere along that hour.
But, its a pretty interesting show. :)

Right now, I feel like shit.
Have been too tired lately, and thus, this will be the last late night movie for as long as it should get.
My calves are aching and my mind is in a whirl and i got so much work to do and I really don't know where to start.

After the movie, we headed to Mr Bean for supper and saw trials of the Indians, making their way somewhere, probably related to their Festival, Thaipusam?
To be completely honest with you, that was the first time I could actually visualized the Indian population in Singapore.
I didn't get to see their rituals, just noticing them walking along Orchard was a scary yet amazing experience. Hahaha. It did raise my curiosity.

I am not. going to go out next week.
Bar myself from enjoyment and leisure because I'll be quite screwed if I don't meet my deadlines.
:|

Sweeettt.

2009-02-04T10:27:00.003+08:00

I can totally imagine it without doors.
AWESOME SHIT MAN!

My bag is not light today.

2009-02-02T11:47:00.003+08:00

Photography class.
:|

I still have a lot to catch up on my photos.
But photos for assignment 2 were a lot more pleasing.
(And I heave a sigh of relief)

Today I'll be back home burying my head in Illustrator since its due tmr.
But of all my modules, photography still takes up most of my time.
And DSLRs are not light.
I can probably build shoulder muscles with it.
Although many a times, teng's carrying my stuff.
Like tripod and my handbag. HAHA.
But you know, it can still weigh on me. :|

Btw, the air in Sentosa at 8am in the morning can be quite breathtaking.
:)

ASSIGN ME.

2009-02-01T11:43:00.002+08:00

I've never felt this pressured for a really long time.
Thank goodness its an individual assignment.

Young Adults

2009-01-29T20:12:00.002+08:00

Many young teens fail to see one situation from different perspectives.
And sometimes, they are caught in an emotional whirl, which I understand, can be part of a growing up process.
Although I have not gone through any extremely bad situations but I believe when we're under such circumstances, there is a need to think about whether all that we're doing is worth what we were fighting for.

Helloooo New Year.

2009-01-25T11:17:00.004+08:00

PRE-Chinese New Year Photos. LOL!!

:D

Chinese New Year has always been one of the most colourful occasions, in my perspective.
Although diluted along the way, I still very much enjoy putting my fingers into those snack baskets and gain weight over the 15 days, not forgetting the red thing that has money in them. LOL.
I love the gatherings and the noises; makes everything.. soo..... happy.
:)

As I will be as busy as many Chineses (I know its without the 's' but figured it sounds cuter) out there with the arrangement of goodies, packing of the house, preparing the reunion dinner, counting down, then engaging in the "lou hae"..
Wow..
Doesn't it sound like fun, children?
=D

LOVE IT!

Over these 20 years, I've seen the changes, the differences that has surfaced during normal gatherings on weekends and during CNY.
There are some less happy incidents, but lets not bring that into a supposedly happy occasion.
But simply put, many of us have grown (really quickly), that it has changed how I always imagined CNY to be.
When I first lived here at 454, my room was like a playground.
With our petite sizes, we would sit under the tables and looked at it as our home ground.
Laying the blanket on the floor, having a doll in our arms, buy rubbish at the MAMA STALL, head to the big playground at the park, sometimes even despite after a huge rainfall. We'd just talk about nothing in the flooded grounds.
Ahhh~..
Childhood.

But after we've had made new friends, CNY has become such a huge scaled event.
Visiting, movies, gambling.
:D

Hahahahaha.

Sometimes I really want to return to 9.
Other times, I wish everything could just stop rightttt here.
And there are times I feel so curious about the future.

:)

Everything seems to fall so nicely into place sometimes that it scares me.
Hahaha.

Have a SUPERB Chinese New Year, Everyone!
HUAT HUAT HUAT AHH!
:D

Second Wed.

2009-01-21T10:13:00.004+08:00

Woohooo!
It's the second free day of school.
1 and a half weeks sure passed quick.

It's funny when my photography lecturer told me to work harder cos my pictures were lacking of some unique and eye-catching compositions.
At least my landscapes were worth EIGHTY FIVE marks!
And just to let you know. That's only a B+. For 85 marks in Sec Sch that's like A1!
To pass, it's 60 marks and above here.
Feeling the heat already?
Hahaha.

I don't care.
I'm getting As.
LOL!!

First Week In School

2009-01-15T18:24:00.003+08:00

You see loads of LV owners walking pass you.
80% of the time, you hear Bahasa Indonesia.

But to be honest, the school functions in a very.. smart way.
In a sense where the timings are flexible, you don't feel like you're year 1 even if you are.
There's no obvious line drawn between anyone.
So you don't really have anything to complain about cos the toilets are clean and it's really easy to move about and choose your seat cos there's so few pple in a class.
But so far, I think I kinda like the way they work.
Only for typography lesson where the lecturer wanted us to take notes after watching a movie.
That's probably not something I like doing; the taking of notes.

Unfortunately, there are no cute guys.
But one thing's for sure, you know they are nothing near poor.
Just to state some facts. Haha.

Tomorrow will be the last day of the week but it feels like I have so many things to do!
DIE.
I've only got two main assignments and I'm already feeling overwhelmed.
How to survive like that?
HAHA.

Hallelujah?
Nono. HUAT AH!

SCHOOL!

2009-01-11T18:57:00.002+08:00

Wow.
I was schooless for almost a year and during that period of time, I really felt empty.
Officially start school tmr.
So fast.
So damn fast.

Orientation on Friday was a bit screwed up.
Just to let you know, my email for Raffles is actually 'sabrinalaujuan@raffles-designer.com'.
Which BLOODY ASSHOLE thought it was funny to do that for my email?
Hmmm?!
SABRINALAUJUAN WHO?!
I'll be stuck with that email for.. THREE YEARS! T-H-R-E-E.
And! the student card looks.. really terrible.
:|

And! I was trying really hard to log in to my email account ytd.
It states that I had either an incorrect username or password.
But I followed exactly what the piece of paper wrote.
Emailed them, told them what I encountered.
Later they called to inform me that the issue has been resolved.
And this afternoon I tried to log in again.
FAILED with the same error.
I kept staring at that stupid paper thinking what the hell could go wrong.
Found out..
they actually swapped the user and password.
Can I just say, DUMB OR WHAT?

But.
Let me put those silly things aside.
And I'll attend lesson tmr with a fresh mind, and see if I'll enjoy my class!
:)

Cannot Take It

2009-01-06T20:00:00.003+08:00

Whaaa.. Buey Tahan.
I just received an acceptance letter from Curtin Uni (in Perth) and hell I've got exemption of 1 Year!
Which means.. I'll only have to study 2 years instead of 3 and guess what?
That means, I could save.. what.. ONE WHOLE YEAR!
Which by the way, IS A LOT OF TIME SAVED!
Oh oh, and you know what?
I've already made payment to Raffles Design Institute.
Which also means, I have lost the power to choose!
Wow.
What a great time for them to send the letter.
But its weird cos they actually start the semester in Feb.
Why am I receiving the letter only now?
SLOW RIGHT?

Gosh.
Australians.
You people really know how to take your time.
Explains their great quality of living.
Whole day just relax only, no need do work.
Hahaha.

Oh and I was looking out for my HTC S740 today.
Guess what? It's exclusive to M1.
PERFECT.
Is the world going against me today or is it just me?

Right now, I am imagining me, slamming my head on the wall with one foot stuck in the toilet bowl with my butt in the basin and my eyes glued onto paper.
Come on!

You up there! Don't play such games with me. So not funny.

Sneak Preview

2009-01-04T22:23:00.006+08:00

It completely slipped off my mind that I should have taken pictures of my house before all the renovation. Managed to find some old photos of my place.

Just 2 mins ago, I decided to take what's left of my place.
Will show only 2 pictures now because the images taken with my phone's camera really looked shitty.

Looks quite.. freaky, yes?
hahaha.

Days without the Internet

2009-01-03T12:36:00.002+08:00

Wha.
Blogger now feels foreign.
haha.
Because of the renovation, we were forced to give up our internet so that they could reposition the cables.
It felt like a hundred years.
And because of that, I missed the chance of blogging on 31st Dec 2008.

Seriously, at every first week of January makes me feel.. somewhat shitty.
Like I've always been living in the 1990s and now its 2009.
This dream feels so real.

But like every other years, I thought I should put down my new year resolutions.
btw, I didn't look back on my previous resolutions cos of the disengaged internet. And since they probably weren't resolved, let me just start with a whole new blank paper.
So, first and foremost.
I will and must concentrate fully on my studies in Raffles Design.
I will not let my parents down, certainly not myself either.
Weight loss and muscle gain has always been an unresolved issue. This year, I want to make it a point to keep myself healthy! So keeping fit and getting toned will be part of my 2009 resolution.
What else.
Actually, that's enough to keep me drilled for this year.
If I can complete these, I'll add on a few more next year. HAHAHA.

The second we entered 2009, it occurred to me that the 1988 batch will all turn 21 this year.
Freaked the shit out of me.
Why is it so... impossibly fast?
Damn, this dream IS real.

PARENTS

2008-12-27T04:03:00.005+08:00

For many months now, I've been thinking a lot about my parents.
That there was once this very short 2 seconds moment where I realized how much my parents have aged.
The lines and freckles on their faces, picture comparisons, ailments.
It was something I've never really been attentive to, and probably didn't come close to my mind.
I had a close look on their faces, how they just seemed different, older.
And it really scared the shit out of me because I started letting my imagination run wild.
I don't think many of us thought about the day they would leave us.
That after so many years of depending on them, depending on their support, love and courage, everything else, makes me feel so weak just thinking about them not being by my side.
They are already in their mid 50s but as much as they may not look their age, nature and reality can be quite cruel.
I appreciate how they have brought me up to be, how they have put in so much effort to get us where we are now.
And because the bond is strong, it is so hard to even try to want to know what life will be like without them.

I don't know if any one else have this habit of asking questions you already have answers to when you strike conversations with your parents.
Because I do.
And I like to do that, I enjoy acting stupid and silly, tell them harmless bluffs but reveal them 2 mins later, all these sometimes just to make them feel a little annoyed but yet entertained.
Watching typical Korean soap operas, variety shows, dramas and whatever they watch just to laugh together and make dramas sound like they should have never surfaced Earth, that we can be better script writers, directors and actors.

Every now and then, I think about the future.
Start counting their age versus mine.
How old they would be 10 years down the road.
How they'll look like.
I don't know. So many things to think, so many things to count.
And I often stop continuing to think about that because I got so frightened about knowing that one day, they will really leave me.

Just recently, I realized how little I remember about them in their 40s.
I can't seem to remember what happened then with them.
Can't seem to remember what they looked like.
What did we do.
Seeing them almost everyday makes gradual changes seem invisible to our eyes.
Remembering only what they look like now as what they should look like before.
Taking for granted that they'll always be there, believing they'll live forever, and ever.. and ever.

But yet, we as beings always have such poor control over our emotions.
Where we have those unexplainable moments of impatience, low tolerance levels for our own parents, times where we get annoyed at them when they don't deserve it.

They've made mistakes as parents, because they are human.
And we'll make their mistakes sound so stupid, as though we could have done a better job.
But no one will be able to understand them until we are parents ourselves, where responsibility heavily weighs you down, and your kids are going through their rebellious stage and you have no control over their thinking anymore.
I know its not easy.
I mean, everyone knows its not easy.
But why is it that they still don't receive the respect and love they deserve?
That we still lie to them just to cover up for something we did that we know they wouldn't like to hear but we still went ahead with it anyway.

What they have given us is something they will never get in return.
But right now, I just want them to know..
THAT I REALLY LOVE THEM!
:)
I LOVE MUMMY AND DADDY!

Post Christmas

2008-12-26T09:46:00.005+08:00

Some pics from HK.
:D

--

Hello!
Wow. It's past Christmas!
But it was just like any other day since there wasn't any proper celebration.
I miss the Lau's Christmas parties at Aggie's place.
At least everyone would be out buying presents for each other, and when the clock strikes 12 on eve, everyone has presents to open. LOL.
shucks.

Well, before the year comes to an end, I thought it would be nice if I could share what I've done this year.
Nothing.
Hahaha.
I've worked, travelled, wasted much time and much money.
But I did enjoy the period of nothingness this year because it really made me think about my own life.
I can't remember what my resolutions was for this year so I'll have to check back on my much earlier post.
But it sure felt like none of my resolutions were resolved. Hahaha.

The year 2008 has been a serious bumpy one for a lot of people around the globe.
Let me keep the New Year hopes for 2009 until the 31st Dec, where I will blog again.

All in all for now, I hope everyone had a great Christmas, yah?
:)

Wow Wee..

2008-12-19T00:59:00.002+08:00

Hahaha.
Wha piang eh.
It's been a while.

Will upload pictures taken in Jiapoon soon!
Think I've been really busy doing nothing that I left out blogging.
School will commerce on 12 Jan.
Piang. Fast or what.
Somehow I feel ready for school.
=|

Ahhh.
I don't know what to blog about.

Reminiscence

2008-11-30T12:17:00.005+08:00

I was just going through some of the blog links that I have left untouched for quite some time.
Its really weird how we can walk out of an institution knowing so many people but keeping so little contact.
The break times, netball, class discussions, gossips gatherings, everything everything.
And some people you thought you would keep close relations with just drifted.
So few people are willing to put in an extra effort to keep a once happy period go on.
Sadly, I believe I am one of them.
But then again, it takes two hands to clap.

Sometimes I feel really sad when I think back and realise how much memory and past these people have contributed to my life but it stopped somewhere somehow - from primary school to secondary to poly.
How much we said we will keep in contact but never did and could laugh so hard then but only a greeting of presence now.
Don't mean to be emo.. haha. but it does make me wonder if we ever intended to keep those friendships going, if I ever knew them as who they really were.
Now, even talking becomes a challenge.

It is sad. It really is. But there's no tears over this gradual deterioration of our friendships.
I really did enjoy every moment I had with all the people I met over these 20 years.
Whether or not they were assholes, bastards or ingrates, they made a difference to my life and I am what my experiences made me, what these people taught me to be.
Of cos, through those times, I've made some great pals whom I have kept in contact till now.
And I'm grateful because more often, they are the ones who initiate the gatherings and get-togethers.
Thanks, my friends!
=D

Hong Kong and Macau

2008-11-26T20:48:00.001+08:00

I think Hong Kong's a lot like Singapore, Malaysia and Bangkok combined.
Although I didn't get to see what I expected myself to and buy what I planned to, but it was alright on the whole.
Its a place I would want to visit again.
Believe bro came back a happier guy.
hahaha.
Will post pictures soon!

Hmm.
my mind's a bit of a blank right now.
There are certain things on my mind right now and I feel some fear within that I can't explain.
Short smile.

Let's talk about Brains.

2008-11-21T17:35:00.003+08:00

hahaha.

Teng told me to read PeiPei's blog.

And yes, I really did.

I realised that.. there are those who seem to know how to choose the right words, phrase it in the right way, and know when to put the right words in the right phrases so perfectly at the right time.

Everything. EVERYTHING is justttt right.

Nice.

And it might not be an incident that happens once in a life time.

Could be anything at all, happens frequently.. daily.. whatever.

But by phrasing it the right way, makes you look and sound a lot more intelligent.

Well done Pei Pei, you have done well (by achieving both in looking and sounding).

Fine. You ARE intelligent.

What Decision?

2008-11-19T13:50:00.002+08:00

Hmm.
It still is a tough choice.
hahaha.
But I've decided that if I manage to get an exemption of at least 1 year for Griffith Uni, I'll go over.
Which means, I'll only need to study for 2 years instead of 3.
It's a good thing right?
Otherwise, I'll study in Raffles Design here, and go over to Sydney to take my last year of the degree.

Both sounds good.
I'm already mentally prepared for which ever outcome.
And no matter what the result is, I'll still do my best because its causing a big hole in my dad's pocket, plus, I should be doing it for my own bright, beautiful, better future.
Right?

=D

State of Mind

2008-11-16T13:09:00.003+08:00

It has to be the first time in my life, that I've ever been this serious about my studies.
Doing my research, thinking about the benefits and problems of which ever option I choose in the end.
But I know, that's because I'm really sick and tired of living the way I have and did.
It's tiring being someone who's unmotivated, the least driven, overly sheltered and who makes plans that leads to no actions.

Why is it as a kid, one is able to feel so energized and ready for shit all the time. But when you hit a certain age, everything just slows down and the changes you bring to yourself gets stuck so hard it makes you.. you.

I want to push myself beyond what I think I am capable of.
I need to cry and feel terrible and grow to be stronger.
I want to experience life in a whole new environment and know 10 years down the road, I'll turn back and believe I made the right choice, that I have no regrets doing what I did.

The course outline of Raffles Design looks fantastic.
If it wasn't because of that, I think I would have decided without too much consideration to go overseas to further.

And I know how I'll have to leave behind so many things here.
My Family, RUSKY (who's not young anymore), Friends, Familiarity, many 21st Birthdays, yes, including my own.
But over at Gold Coast, a place so beautiful, so serene, meeting all kinds of people from all over the world, everything else would inevitably impact me as a designer, as a person, my perspectives, my senses.

So far, I've not known anyone who has returned to say they hated life overseas. In fact, they felt its been a trip that changed their lives for the better. Which is why its an option. And I have to admit it, it makes me feel both nervous and excited at the same time.
I can foresee tears, but yet, a better me.

If Raffles becomes my choice and I graduate 3 years later, I feel like I would still remain me, but more skilled, and more ready for work. Raffles gives me a sense of security, like they have planned everything the way you want it to be from the start till end. And you'll know, as long as you stay motivated, they won't let you die.

Can't get the best of both worlds here.
As much as I would like to.

Art Schools

2008-11-13T17:37:00.002+08:00

1. Raffles Design Institute
2. Norwich University College of the Arts
3. Academy of Art University

:)